Walk on the Water


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I'm Carolyn. I'm 19. Christian. Trauma survivor. Depressed. Suicidal. Self-harmer. I'm on the road to recovery & God is leading my way. A lot of what you will see posted here will be spiritual or about things I have gone through. I am passionate about helping those in need & standing up for what is right. Some of my posts may be triggering for those who have went through the trauma of rape, but it is something I am very adamant about spreading awareness on. That as well as self-harm/depression/ any mental illness. If I have developed an opinion or view on something, chances are, I am very passionate about them. I am extremely passionate about my views of abortion & other political issues. I may not be the most educated on these topics, but I know what I believe & why I believe it. Chances of someone changing my view on any of these topics is slim to none, but I am not one to judge if you believe differently than me. I'll be friends with anyone as long as you respect me. If any of you are ever in need, please contact me. I will do my best to help in whatever way I can, even if it's just a listening ear. I love you guys & God bless.

Oh, & you will probably see lots of bearded men on my page too. I can't help that they are so pretty :p
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elmakias:

thank you for leaving my tag in this gif, you done good.


what are they having? dick? 😏

elmakias:

thank you for leaving my tag in this gif, you done good.

what are they having? dick? 😏

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the-forward-observer:


hes only seconds old and hes prepared for the world
live long and prosper little dude



He’s been waiting eight months to show that to Obama.

the-forward-observer:

hes only seconds old and hes prepared for the world

live long and prosper little dude

He’s been waiting eight months to show that to Obama.

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disembodiedangelfeet:

isaisanisa:

I LAUGHED REALLY LOUDLY AT HOW PISSED DEAN WOULD BE IF SAM BROUGHT THIS HOME

“I’m back, Dean! Guess what I brought!” Sam called as he let himself into their hotel room.
“Took you long enough. What, some conditioner?” Dean didn’t even try to move from his spot on the bed. He was busy looking through the newspaper for reasons known only to Dean Winchester.
“Nope. Your favorite thing.” Sam pulled the plastic container out of the grocery bag and waved it at just the right angle. Dean glanced over, seeing the flash of crust strips over red filling.
“Dude! You got an entire freaking pie?” Dean was on his feet and after the pie instantly. It’d been weeks since they’d gotten decent pie.
Sam grinned enthusiastically as he set it on the table. “Yeah. Dig in. It’s not fresh, but its probably good.” He retreated out of the room.
Dean worked the clear covering off and found a fork somewhere. There was something kind of weird about the pie, but he didn’t care. Mouth watering, he dug the fork in and-
What the.
There was no thick, liquid resistance against the fork edge, no stain of red juice bubbling over the edges from the pressure. He forked out a bite and lifted it, staring in disbelief.
It was white cake.
It was fucking white cake disguised as pie.
“FUCKING HELL, SAMMY, I’M GONNA BEAT YOUR ASS SENSELESS!”

disembodiedangelfeet:

isaisanisa:

I LAUGHED REALLY LOUDLY AT HOW PISSED DEAN WOULD BE IF SAM BROUGHT THIS HOME

“I’m back, Dean! Guess what I brought!” Sam called as he let himself into their hotel room.

“Took you long enough. What, some conditioner?” Dean didn’t even try to move from his spot on the bed. He was busy looking through the newspaper for reasons known only to Dean Winchester.

“Nope. Your favorite thing.” Sam pulled the plastic container out of the grocery bag and waved it at just the right angle. Dean glanced over, seeing the flash of crust strips over red filling.

“Dude! You got an entire freaking pie?” Dean was on his feet and after the pie instantly. It’d been weeks since they’d gotten decent pie.

Sam grinned enthusiastically as he set it on the table. “Yeah. Dig in. It’s not fresh, but its probably good.” He retreated out of the room.

Dean worked the clear covering off and found a fork somewhere. There was something kind of weird about the pie, but he didn’t care. Mouth watering, he dug the fork in and-

What the.

There was no thick, liquid resistance against the fork edge, no stain of red juice bubbling over the edges from the pressure. He forked out a bite and lifted it, staring in disbelief.

It was white cake.

It was fucking white cake disguised as pie.

“FUCKING HELL, SAMMY, I’M GONNA BEAT YOUR ASS SENSELESS!”

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#pretty words #cody
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corsetmaid:

my cats are mad at each other omfg cant breathe

corsetmaid:

my cats are mad at each other omfg cant breathe

the-forward-observer said: But I want to see the name so I don't break the wrong legs! That would make me an asshole.

lol just don’t break anyone’s legs.

the-forward-observer said: Hey stop hide this asshole name everyone should see what kind of piece of shit he is! He's being a dick to you but you hide his name bull shit. You new boyfriend is gonna have to spank your ass!

lol I hide the name bc I’m not as much of an ass as this guy

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I love people. don’t think I don’t already know I’m a whore because I do.

I love people. don’t think I don’t already know I’m a whore because I do.

#idiot #asshole #personal #whore #slut #ugh #whatever
Anonymous said: 1-215 >:D

1-How are you? im doing ok i guess.
2-Post a picture of yourself. 
 

3-Do you ever wish you were someone else? every moment of my life.
4-What is your entire name? carolyn irene browning
5-How old are you? i am 19, in just over a month i will be 20
6-Age you get mistaken for: it depends. most of the time people think im about 25 though.
7-Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality: i am a leo. i think its all hocus pocus, but some of the stuff they put out there fits me. 
8-What did you do on your last birthday? i was at the beach with my best friend.
9-What is one thing you would like to accomplish before your next birthday? lol well, i dont have much time to accomplish anything. sooooo, i guess make it another month without cutting. today made 3 months. I would like to accomplish making it 4 months self harm free.
10-What is your hair color? i am a brunette.
11-Have you ever dyed your hair? yup.
12-What is your eye color? brown. 
13-If you could change your eye color, would you? i used to want blue eyes, but i dont mind having brown anymore.
14-Do you wear contacts/glasses? glasses much more often than my contacts.
18-Do you have any tattoos? i currently have 3 tattoos. i am dying for more!
19-Do you have any piercings? just 2 in each ear & my belly button.
20-Left or right handed? right.
21-What’s your sexual orientation? straight female
22-Do you drink? when given the opportunity, yes.
23-Do you smoke? yup.
24-Do you have any pets? i have a super fluffy cat, a wiener dog, & a betta fish.
25-Where do you work? pea ridge baptist preschool, after-school & summer care.
26-Something you are working on right now: splitting off certain aspects of my life from others. for example, my sexuality from my spirituality.
27-Do you have any “rules” about food? well, i wont eat after anyone else. 
28-Where are you from? born & raised west virginia girl.
29-What would you say is your best quality? erm. i guess that im caring. i dont know.
30-What do you think you’re really good at? bitching. being sad. nothing good.
31-What do you think you’re really bad at? everything…
33-Are you a bad person? i feel like i am, yeah.
34-Are you nice to everyone? i try my very hardest to be.
36-Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? oh yeah. gotta love middle school girls.
37-What is your ideal bed? Why? one with ryan gosling in it. lol, no im kidding. im not sure. 
38-Did you wake up cranky? pretty much every morning.
39-Do you sleep with a stuffed toy? nope.
40-What do you think about the most? i constantly have so much running through my head. its hard for me to tell whats going on up there most of the time.
42-What you want to be when you “get older”? i want to be an elementary school teacher.

43-What are your career goals? i hope to have my very own classroom very soon. i just want to teach so bad.

44-What is your ideal career? hmmmm. maybe you should read my answers for the last 3 questions.
45-Is your life anything like it was two years ago? my life has practically done a complete 180.
46-Do you replay things that have happened in your head? unfortunately.
47-Have you ever had an imaginary friend? i honestly cant remember having one as a child. i have always just talked to myself.
48-Say 10 facts about your room: 1. its a mess. 2. my walls are blue. 2. i have a full sized bed. 3. i have no sheets on my bed. 4. i have a white bookshelf. 5. most of whats on my floor is dirty clothes. 6. i have a glass desk. 7. i have a black computer chair in the middle of the floor. 8. i have a keyboard. 9. youd never know if i have carpet or hard wood. 10. my window is huge.

49-Do you have any phobias? im so scared of huge people changing. mostly relationship fears. aby kind of relationship.
50-Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? i go twice a week! woo.
51-Are you allergic to anything? If so, what? just being stung.
52-Ever broken any bones? my dad broke my collar bone when i was a baby while trying to hold me & stand up at the same time.
53-Ever come close to death? oh, a couple times.
60-Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this? i do & idk. this was sent anon.

61-Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? yup. i do.
62-Describe yourself in one word/sentence: disastrous.
63-A quote you try to live by: its a Bible verse. ‘And we know that in all things God works together for the good to those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.’ Romans 8:28
64-A famous person you’ve been compared to: scarlett johanson because of my ‘sultry’ voice.
65-Weird things you do when you’re alone: i most;y do weird things when i am around my friends lol.
66-Something you do without realizing: i think i make unpleasant faces without realizing it.
68-Someone you’d like to be for a day and why: i would love to have another day with my Nana because I miss her like crazy. I took the time i had with her for granted. 
69-Leave me a compliment: im not really sure whether the person who sent the numbers was supposed to leave a compliment or what, but, anon, you are beautiful.

Favorites

70-What is your favorite thing to do? hm this is such a hard one. it really all depends on what mood i am in, but you really cant go wrong with sleeping lol.
71-What’s your favorite color? blueeeee.
73-What’s your favorite movie? i go through phases of movies. but i would say my all time favorite is ‘ace ventura pet detective: when nature calls’
74-What are your favorite books? cold sassy tree by olive ann burns
75-What is your favorite quote and why? the verse from the Bible that I used for the last question about quotes.
76-What is your favorite word? i really like the word ‘fuck’ & i shouldnt.
77-What is your least favorite word? hmmm. what about the word ‘stephen?’
78-What is your favorite type of food? i LOOOOOVE pasta.
79-You favorite ice cream? i am a classic vanilla type of girl.
80-What’s your favorite animal? cats. definitely cats.
81-Dogs or cats? catsssss lol
82-Describe your favourite texture: what? i dont know!
83-What is your favorite flower? carnation.
84-What’s your favourite scent? And on the opposite sex? i love the smell of vanilla. cant go wrong with that. & idk really about on the opposite sex. as long as they smell good & not like BO or feet, we’re good.
85-What is your favorite season? spring or fall.
86-What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die? 1. australia 2. egypt 3. spain 4. caribbean 5. disney world
87-What are four things you can’t live without and why? 1. God. i think thats pretty self explanatory. I would be nothing without Him. 2. my parents. they have done soooo much for me. 3. cody. he is really my only friend & he gets me through so much. he is so patient & understanding. idk what i would do without him. 4. children. they bring so much joy to my life. i could never ever live without kids.
88-Which mythological creature are you most like? Why? medusa. idk why. it just seems fitting.
89-What’s your favorite television show? THE BIG BANG THEORY OMG
90-Favorite place to shop at? probably old navy
91-Say 2 facts about your favorite things: lets say pasta. 1. it is italian 2. it is delicious

Friends

106-Would you ever smile at a stranger? i sure would.
107-Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? i dont have a preference.
108-Who is someone you never tire of? cody <3
109-Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? I’m getting to be that way around cody, but definitely jordan or kayla. the only problem is, we are never together anymore. i pretty much have no friends now.
110-Who is your most loyal friend? this is a hard section. i really dont feel like i am that close to anyone now. 
111-Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? my therapist.
112-If your best friend died, what would you do? i would probably go into a huge relapse. i dont know if i could make it through.
113-Something you’ve lied about. sex.
114-Have you ever felt replaced?
115-Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s): ill just use cody. 1. he is always there for me 2. he is one handsome ass man 3. he would do absolutely anything for me 4. he is very protective 5. he makes me happy.

Relationships

116-The last person you hugged? i think my mom
117-Story of your first kiss? well, i was 12 & my bf brendan came over & we sat on the driveway & he kissed. nothing really to it lol.
118-Do you like kissing in public? i dont mind it. but i dont want to be one of those gross couples that are all over each other. thats for behind doors.
119-Have you ever kissed someone older than you? every day.
120-You have a preference for boys or girls? i am a straight female. i like penis.
121-Is the male or female body closest to perfection? female. sorry dudes.
127-What is the first thing you noticed in someone? eyes & smile.
128-Are looks important in a relationship? of course. there has to be some physical attraction. but it isnt everything & once you fall for someone’s heart & personality, they become the most attractive person on the planet. 
129-What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? BEARDS.
130-What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? mostly depends on the age of the youngest person. i think a 12 yr old with a 16 yr old is too much. but a 20 yr old with a 24 yr old isnt bad. my papa is 82 & his gf is 62. that doesnt bother me. the older you get, the less weird it becomes i guess.
131-Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? after i got to know them REALLY well.
133-Do you have a crush on anyone? im in a very happy relationship with a boy named cody <3
134-A description of the girl/boy you like: he is amazing. about average height, but much taller than me lol. blonde. he has a beard! blue eyes. glasses. soooo handsome.
135-Say 1 fact about the person you like: he is always there for me no matter what.
136-If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? i would be really sad especially since he is my boyfriend already lol
137-When was the last time you told someone you loved them? in a romantic way, it has been a while.
138-Do you think someone has feelings for you? i would certainly hope so since we are dating.
139-Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? i do.
140-Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? way too many times.
141-Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? yup
142-Anyone you’re giving up on? not at the moment, but in the past, yes.
143-Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? yes.
144-Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? uh huuuuuh lol
145-Have you ever liked one of your best friends? i sure have.
146-Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? too many times to really believe it.
147-Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? yup.
148-Is there someone you will never forget? unfortunately.
153-What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? cody brought me flowers & a teddy bear to work for valentines day. it was such a surprise but it was so sweet.
154-What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? i have no idea. i think it would be awesome to have someone do something i couldnt even think to do myself.
157-Are you in love? not yet.
158-Are you in a relationship? i am.
159-If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? just the fact that he is literally always there for me anytime i ever need him.
160-Are relationships ever worth it? i havent had one that has been, but im crossing my fingers that this one will be.
161-Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? not that i am aware of & if there is someone they can bite me.
162-Can you commit to one person? yes i can.
163-Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? i was in one for 4 years & didnt cheat. you tell me.
164-Do you ever want to get married? i would love to if i can find a guy that can convince me that its worth it.
165-Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? i hope so.
167-Do you get jealous easily? it depends on the situation.
168-The last time you felt jealous, and why? i dont really remember.
169-What is your definition of cheating? any physical contact like hand holding, kissing, especially anything sexual with someone else.
170-Have you ever been cheated on? once or twice.
171-Do you forgive betrayal? i do.
172-Have you ever cheated on someone? no
173-Why did your last relationship fail? because he decided he wanted to choose pot over me.
174-Things you want to say to an ex: FUCK YOU
175-A description of the person you dislike the most: hes a rapist.
176-If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? id tell him to keep his presents, accept the apology & say if he doesnt leave im calling the cops.
177-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? serious ones? 3
178-How long was your longest relationship? 4 years.
179-You’ll love me if
 i dont know. thats kind of a hard one to answer. there isnt just one thing that will make me love you.
180-Share a relationship story: id 
rather not.

Music, movies and books

181-How often do you listen to music? every single day.
182-What kind of music you like? i can listen to anything & everything depending on my mood.
183-Do you like to dance? its alright. i wont do it in front of anyone though.
185-Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? yup.
186-Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past: a song by casting crowns called “your love is extravagant” it reminds me of the ending in “where the red fern grows” because i remember bawling my eyes out while listening to it.
187-A song that’s been stuck in your head: “still into you” by paramore.
188-Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play: 1.”you need me, i dont need you” ed sheeran. 2. “lullaby” creed. 3. “not over you” michael henry & justin robinett. 4. “fix you” michael henry & justin robinett. 5. “brahms lullaby” kenny g. 6. “restless” needtobreathe. 7. “give me your eyes” brandon heath. 8. “the love of God” the gaither vocal band. 9. “love’s to blame” for king & country. 10. “fearless” building 429. 
189-A book you want to read/have recently read: i have recently read “im not a serial killer” & “mr. monster” by dan wells. i started the third one “i dont want to kill you” & i am really loving the series.
190-Describe your dream library: uh, pretty much a bunch of thriller books. i also like novels set in old america. idk. i like all kinds of different books. as long as it peaks my interest, i will want to read it.
191-Last movie you just watched: i watched “the purge” in theaters. it was ok i guess. i had much higher expectations for it.
192-Do you like watching what type of movies? depends on my mood & as long as it is interesting.

Situations and crazy things

193-You’re in a tattoo parlor about to get inked. What are you getting done? probably another Bible reference on my other wrist or the bird tattoo ive been wanting on my foot. I have so many already picked out… lol
194-What’s something you can see yourself going to jail for? hmmm. im not really sure… underage drinking?
195-If you could be any character, from any literary work, who would you choose to be? i think i would choose to be the sociopath in the dan wells series ive been reading. just because i hate having certain emotions & he doesnt have them. 
196-You’re given $10,000
under one condition: you cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to? i would without a doubt give it to my parents.
197-If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? i would never have started dating my ex fiancé.
198-If you were an element on the Periodic Table, which would you be and why? hmm im not very science-y. i have no idea. ill say helium just because it makes your voice high pitched.
199-If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2008. thats the year i lost my nana & the year i started dating my ex.
200-You’re an Action Movie Hero. What’s your weapon of choice and the line you scream when defeating your arch enemy? hmmm idk. i always talk about using shot guns. & maybe i would scream “I AM THE MASTER COMMANDER” just because thats what olan rogers yelled in his “ghost in the stalls” video.
201-If you could design an amusement park ride, what would it be like? super fast & super high. ugh.
202-What is the first curse word that comes to mind? fuck
203-What the last party you went to was
 and when the next will be
 i dont know. i dont go to parties. i panic.
204-Halloween costume idea? i could go as myself & scare the whole neighborhood.
205-How you’d spend ten thousand bucks? id finish paying my car off & then probably get some tattoos with the left over money. 
206-Press ctrl+v and post:  i constantly have so much running through my head. its hard for me to tell whats going on up there most of the time.

207-Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for ten years or someone you hate for a month? Explain why. definitely someone i love for ten years. if i love that person i wont mind being with them for that long stranded on an island. plus, i dont really hate anyone soooo
208-5 things within touching distance: 1. my laptop 2. my phone 3. my pillows 4. my blanket 5. my bottle of dasani water
209-A drunken story: i just about fell backwards down a flight of steps my very first time being drunk. 
210-What are you supposed to be doing right now? if anything at all, sleeping.
211-Currently wanting to see anyone? always.
212-Why you follow me? well, this was anon so….
213-If you met me what would you do? again, anon.
214-Leave me a ridiculous question: who the fuck are you?
215-Leave me a cute message: youre adorable, anon, whoever the fuck you are.

thanks for sending me all of these & im sorry it took me a time span of about 3 days to finish these! haha :p

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